In my interview, I spoke about a pivotal moment in my life during that time of surrendering. I want to expand on that topic. It was short and sweet in the interview, but there's more to that statement that I want to unpack a little. I stated "As christians we have to surrender to God everyday..."
surrender: to give up or hand over.
Hand over. We have the privilege to hand over everything to God. Everything. In that moment I was in the PET scan with those hot tears streaming down my face, I had to hand over and give up my fears and my doubts that any good news would ever come our way again. I think this was the first time in my walk with the Lord that I realized that every second we need HIM. We need the Lord always. You see at age 24 I handed my life fully over to Christ and was baptized on top of a building over looking Saint Louis. I knew the Lord my whole life but I was certainly not living for the Lord. It wasn't until my 21st year of life that I allowed God to shape my heart. I surrendered to Him. I thought that was all the surrendering I needed to do. Baby Trotters journey taught me to surrender to God every day. I will hand over my fears and anxiety every single second because I am human, and these feelings tend to cripple me more often then I'd like since 2010. "Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7 I will give up those moments in parenting where I think I am failing and let God reassure me with His word that I am enough. I will hand over the unknowns. I will give up my earthly desires. I will surrender to the Lords plans for my life. Something beautiful happens on the other side of surrendering. It's a transformation of our souls. A transformation of our thoughts. A transformation of our lives. God continues to transform us to be more like Christ. We must be still and listen.
"I Surrender" - Hillsong
My prayer for you and I is that we continue to surrender and allow God to transform us. If you are in a hard season of life, I pray for God to give you the strength you need. "Suffering produces endurance, produces character, produces HOPE" Romans 5:3-4. We are broken pieces that will come together and make something beautiful for the glory of God. He makes beauty out of ashes. (Isaiah 61:3)
xo
jess
Baby Trotters short life continues to teach us and the Lord continues to grow us.
