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Friday, September 28, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
fall
Fall is a favorite of mine.
I love everything about fall...
food
weather
hats
boots
colors
smells
The Mr. and I went to apple works with his mom, grandma and our little miss T.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
High Chair Make Over
High Chair Make Over!
This was mine, my brothers and my sisters high chair growing up. We cleaned it up and will use it for Tenley's first birthday party when we go back home in October!
This was mine, my brothers and my sisters high chair growing up. We cleaned it up and will use it for Tenley's first birthday party when we go back home in October!
Tight sqeeeeeze!
Primer
Finished product!!!!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
new camera.new beginnings.
My sweet husband bought me a new camera and I am super happy about it!
In the next couple of months I can't wait to share what God is doing in my heart and in my life. After Tenley was born I felt like I wasn't sure what my place was in life besides being a mom. I had accomplished almost everything I had dreamed of when I was a little girl, finding my prince charming and having a baby. I am blessed to be a stay at home mommy and wouldn't have it any other way but I wasn't sure what I else I was supposed to be doing. For 8 months I have prayed about this new beginning and it is starting to come together and I couldn't be more excited about it! I have big dreams.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
true love.
Almost nine months ago I experienced love on a whole new level. I never knew I could love someone so deeply. Tenley Marie was placed in my arms after 19 hours of labor, I understood. I understood more then but even more now, how much God loves us. I love my daughter more than I can explain. Before I had Tenley I knew God loved me but once Tenley was born I was able to experience that love for my child. As a parent, you want to protect them, guide them, teach them, encourage them and love them. God has done all of those things for me. I am glad to call HIM my Father!
"But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one" 2 Thessalonians 3:3
"I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths" Proverbs 4:11
"For we know that we dealt with each of you as a father deals with his own children, encouraging, comforting and urging you to love lives worthy of God, who calls you into his kingdom and glory" 1 Thessalonians 2:11
The past couple months I have really thought about love and what it means to me. I have thought about my relationship with God and how much it has grown just since we had Tenley. These thoughts and feelings have made me want to please God more and more everyday. Having a child has made me appreciate God's love for me on a whole new level of understanding.
I am thankful and blessed to have true love.
"we love because he first loved us" 1 John 4:19
"my command is this: love each other as I have loved you" John 15:12
"But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one" 2 Thessalonians 3:3
"I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths" Proverbs 4:11
"For we know that we dealt with each of you as a father deals with his own children, encouraging, comforting and urging you to love lives worthy of God, who calls you into his kingdom and glory" 1 Thessalonians 2:11
The past couple months I have really thought about love and what it means to me. I have thought about my relationship with God and how much it has grown just since we had Tenley. These thoughts and feelings have made me want to please God more and more everyday. Having a child has made me appreciate God's love for me on a whole new level of understanding.
I am thankful and blessed to have true love.
"we love because he first loved us" 1 John 4:19
"my command is this: love each other as I have loved you" John 15:12
Sunday, June 3, 2012
transitioning. raw. one year
It's crazy to think about what my life was like a year ago. Adam and I were packing up our first house, having many last "dates" with friends and remembering all the memories we had made. I believe my excitement may have pushed any other feelings my body was trying to express at that time, but I was ready, ready to start our new lives as we embraced God's plan for us. We took the leap. Of course we were sad to leave our friends and families and the life we knew in STL but we had been praying for many many months that God would open doors for us and that HE did.
As I reflect on my life from June 2011 to June 2012 the only word that sums it up is Transitioning. I don't think I have ever been through so many transitions in my life, I am thankful for all of them because they have changed me.
I remember pulling up to our apartment and seeing all kinds of wonderful people ready to help us move in! I couldn't believe all the love we were already feeling. Our apartment was stocked with drinks, food, paper plates, cleaning supplies and much more. As soon as we opened the doors people were in there cleaning and unloading our u-haul truck. As the weekend went on our families helped us put stuff away and unload any last items. At 5 months pregnant, this was a job.
On Sunday our families left. I remember standing outside our apartment door, Adam was holding our dog, Prince and I was holding Adams hand as we waved good-bye to our families as they pulled away. My mom never cried infront of me but as they turned the corner I could see her breaking. My mom and I have never had to experience being separated for a long period of time, let alone live in different cities. I had to transition my life without her physically there when I needed her.
Adam and I walked in our apartment sat on the couch and we both looked at each other and said "Is this for real? What do we do now?"
As time went on I was so wrapped up in getting our lives ready for this sweet baby to come into our world. It seemed like it took me forever to try and fit everything we owned into this little space! I had stuff tucked away EVERYWHERE. I had kitchen stuff in our bedrooms, it was tight. I made a ton of hair bows and decor for Tenley's room. I think I did some sort of craft everyday. I went home a couple times for babyshowers, which meant more stuff to put in this little space but we were blessed. I learned how to cook more than just our regular "AJ meal" I became a little domestic wifey :)
It was hard to have anyone over because it felt like we were sitting on top of each other!
The first of August came and all my teacher friends back home were going back to work. I was sad but also grateful that I had the opportunity to stay home. I wanted to be there with them. I wanted my desk in Jill's room again. I wanted my friends who knew me, knew my story. My friends who were there through one of the hardest times in my life. I wanted to do life with my lovely, funny, amazing, and strong friends at Lawson. I had to prepare to transition into my new career, being a mom.
It happened, something I never really thought about or processed. On August 24th, I got a phone call, "Jessica, uncle Ken passed away this morning"- I felt hopeless. I was 7 1/2 months pregnant 8 hours from my family in Kansas and I couldn't be there. The day was already a little hard for me, baby Trotters due date was exactly a year ago that day. My family had the funeral for my uncle a couple days later and that was very difficult not being able to love and support my Aunt and family.
Once September hit I was done. I was tired, sleepy all the time, my back hurt something fierce and I was not comfortable in my own skin, so I isolated myself.
October came and so did my due date. Of course on "Trotter time" Tenley was late! But on October 18th, 2011 at 9:59pm Tenley Marie Trotter was born and our whole world changed. I was thankful my mom was able to be a part of that special day with us and happy Adam's parents were able to come up as well. But then they all had to leave. We transitioned.
Having a baby away from your family is hard, period. We loved our church family and the friends we had began to form relationships with but at the time we just weren't "settled" or felt like we could just call for help.
Tenley's first 4 months were and still are a blur for me. I had the worst anxiety. I was overwhelmed. I was tired. I was sad to be away from "home". It was cold so I never wanted to leave but yet had these 4 walls caving in on me. We had a new born baby for the first time. I needed my mom. Adam and I had to learn everything together, but we GOT to do it together and that is beautiful. Even though it was a blur, I still remember it and I remember how in love I was with this beautiful person and still am today.
We went back to STL for Thanksgiving and for Christmas and it was a whirlwind. Traveling with a newborn baby and a dog, was a bit much. But we enjoyed the time we had showing off our little girl.
In the midst of having a new born baby and everything that comes with it we were house hunting. We found the perfect home and it was a short sale, which meant the biggest headache and lots of patience. We went back and fourth and finally God blessed us with a beautiful home. We became homeowners officially on December 29th. Transitioning on taking on some debt and a lot of work :)
After getting back from STL after the holidays it was time to focus our attention on getting our house ready to move in! My lovely husband and some pretty awesome friends helped paint our house, our whole house, EVERY wall in our house. It was a lot but we did it! So 8 months later after moving our lives, we were moving again. This time not as far but it was moving. We moved into our new house on my birthday. It was bittersweet. The selfish sin of mine snuck in on that day. It was the first time in 28 years I have never been without my mom and family on my birthday. It was rough. I remember sitting on the bathroom floor of our apartment with the door locked crying on the phone as quiet as I could to my mom. Earlier that morning I had ruined our couch and I think that was the icing on top of my emotions and I broke. Yes, my hormones were still transitioning. We did it, we moved in and once again stood on our porch waving good bye to Adams parents, this time holding our dog and our baby. Transition
The first 2 1/2 months living in our new home, I was putting stuff away again and making it our own. This time with a baby to take care of but I enjoyed it.
It hit me. It hit me hard. We just bought a house 4 hours from our families. We are here, this is our life now, we have our feet grounded and this is where we are going to raise our family. I began to feel guilty. I don't know why it hit me then but it did. I felt guilty for taking Tenley away from our families. I felt guilty for leaving my brother and sister. I am suppose to protect them, guide them and love on them and how am I going to do that when I am not there? My brother was getting ready to graduate high school, my sister was going into junior high and where was I? Transitioning.
Unfortunately, in March I had another bad, unexpected phone call. Another uncle of mine passed away in a motorcycle accident. It was really hard for my family.
God is doing some big things in my heart and in our lives. I have prayed. I have asked for prayer. Adam and I are blessed with such an amazing support team in STL and here in Indy. Everything I have prayed for, I have received. I don't deserve it. But I am in awe, awestruck wonder of how God has blessed me.
After all the transitioning we have been through we can finally breathe, we can finally focus now on relationships and where God has planted us. I am so excited for new things to come. I am excited for our LifeGroup and to go thru "Real Marriage" with some amazing couples. I am excited for MOPs next semester, I am excited for MOPs play dates this summer. I am excited for Tenley to go in the nursery at church so I can focus on the message and worship! I am excited to have people over to our home and have fellowship. I am excited for what God has in store for us.
Thank you family and friends for loving on me, praying for me and standing by my side while I was distant or maybe sometimes a little hesitant. Thank you to my husband who is the best partner, best friend and an amazing father! We did it, babe. We moved out of state, had a baby and bought a house in under a years times. whoa. We took that leap of faith and we landed in the right spot!
my life is beautiful. I am ready to embrace it. I know at times it can be hard but it isn't impossible with God's love!
Time to move out of Transition
As I reflect on my life from June 2011 to June 2012 the only word that sums it up is Transitioning. I don't think I have ever been through so many transitions in my life, I am thankful for all of them because they have changed me.
I remember pulling up to our apartment and seeing all kinds of wonderful people ready to help us move in! I couldn't believe all the love we were already feeling. Our apartment was stocked with drinks, food, paper plates, cleaning supplies and much more. As soon as we opened the doors people were in there cleaning and unloading our u-haul truck. As the weekend went on our families helped us put stuff away and unload any last items. At 5 months pregnant, this was a job.
On Sunday our families left. I remember standing outside our apartment door, Adam was holding our dog, Prince and I was holding Adams hand as we waved good-bye to our families as they pulled away. My mom never cried infront of me but as they turned the corner I could see her breaking. My mom and I have never had to experience being separated for a long period of time, let alone live in different cities. I had to transition my life without her physically there when I needed her.
Adam and I walked in our apartment sat on the couch and we both looked at each other and said "Is this for real? What do we do now?"
As time went on I was so wrapped up in getting our lives ready for this sweet baby to come into our world. It seemed like it took me forever to try and fit everything we owned into this little space! I had stuff tucked away EVERYWHERE. I had kitchen stuff in our bedrooms, it was tight. I made a ton of hair bows and decor for Tenley's room. I think I did some sort of craft everyday. I went home a couple times for babyshowers, which meant more stuff to put in this little space but we were blessed. I learned how to cook more than just our regular "AJ meal" I became a little domestic wifey :)
It was hard to have anyone over because it felt like we were sitting on top of each other!
The first of August came and all my teacher friends back home were going back to work. I was sad but also grateful that I had the opportunity to stay home. I wanted to be there with them. I wanted my desk in Jill's room again. I wanted my friends who knew me, knew my story. My friends who were there through one of the hardest times in my life. I wanted to do life with my lovely, funny, amazing, and strong friends at Lawson. I had to prepare to transition into my new career, being a mom.
It happened, something I never really thought about or processed. On August 24th, I got a phone call, "Jessica, uncle Ken passed away this morning"- I felt hopeless. I was 7 1/2 months pregnant 8 hours from my family in Kansas and I couldn't be there. The day was already a little hard for me, baby Trotters due date was exactly a year ago that day. My family had the funeral for my uncle a couple days later and that was very difficult not being able to love and support my Aunt and family.
Once September hit I was done. I was tired, sleepy all the time, my back hurt something fierce and I was not comfortable in my own skin, so I isolated myself.
October came and so did my due date. Of course on "Trotter time" Tenley was late! But on October 18th, 2011 at 9:59pm Tenley Marie Trotter was born and our whole world changed. I was thankful my mom was able to be a part of that special day with us and happy Adam's parents were able to come up as well. But then they all had to leave. We transitioned.
Having a baby away from your family is hard, period. We loved our church family and the friends we had began to form relationships with but at the time we just weren't "settled" or felt like we could just call for help.
Tenley's first 4 months were and still are a blur for me. I had the worst anxiety. I was overwhelmed. I was tired. I was sad to be away from "home". It was cold so I never wanted to leave but yet had these 4 walls caving in on me. We had a new born baby for the first time. I needed my mom. Adam and I had to learn everything together, but we GOT to do it together and that is beautiful. Even though it was a blur, I still remember it and I remember how in love I was with this beautiful person and still am today.
We went back to STL for Thanksgiving and for Christmas and it was a whirlwind. Traveling with a newborn baby and a dog, was a bit much. But we enjoyed the time we had showing off our little girl.
In the midst of having a new born baby and everything that comes with it we were house hunting. We found the perfect home and it was a short sale, which meant the biggest headache and lots of patience. We went back and fourth and finally God blessed us with a beautiful home. We became homeowners officially on December 29th. Transitioning on taking on some debt and a lot of work :)
After getting back from STL after the holidays it was time to focus our attention on getting our house ready to move in! My lovely husband and some pretty awesome friends helped paint our house, our whole house, EVERY wall in our house. It was a lot but we did it! So 8 months later after moving our lives, we were moving again. This time not as far but it was moving. We moved into our new house on my birthday. It was bittersweet. The selfish sin of mine snuck in on that day. It was the first time in 28 years I have never been without my mom and family on my birthday. It was rough. I remember sitting on the bathroom floor of our apartment with the door locked crying on the phone as quiet as I could to my mom. Earlier that morning I had ruined our couch and I think that was the icing on top of my emotions and I broke. Yes, my hormones were still transitioning. We did it, we moved in and once again stood on our porch waving good bye to Adams parents, this time holding our dog and our baby. Transition
The first 2 1/2 months living in our new home, I was putting stuff away again and making it our own. This time with a baby to take care of but I enjoyed it.
It hit me. It hit me hard. We just bought a house 4 hours from our families. We are here, this is our life now, we have our feet grounded and this is where we are going to raise our family. I began to feel guilty. I don't know why it hit me then but it did. I felt guilty for taking Tenley away from our families. I felt guilty for leaving my brother and sister. I am suppose to protect them, guide them and love on them and how am I going to do that when I am not there? My brother was getting ready to graduate high school, my sister was going into junior high and where was I? Transitioning.
Unfortunately, in March I had another bad, unexpected phone call. Another uncle of mine passed away in a motorcycle accident. It was really hard for my family.
God is doing some big things in my heart and in our lives. I have prayed. I have asked for prayer. Adam and I are blessed with such an amazing support team in STL and here in Indy. Everything I have prayed for, I have received. I don't deserve it. But I am in awe, awestruck wonder of how God has blessed me.
After all the transitioning we have been through we can finally breathe, we can finally focus now on relationships and where God has planted us. I am so excited for new things to come. I am excited for our LifeGroup and to go thru "Real Marriage" with some amazing couples. I am excited for MOPs next semester, I am excited for MOPs play dates this summer. I am excited for Tenley to go in the nursery at church so I can focus on the message and worship! I am excited to have people over to our home and have fellowship. I am excited for what God has in store for us.
Thank you family and friends for loving on me, praying for me and standing by my side while I was distant or maybe sometimes a little hesitant. Thank you to my husband who is the best partner, best friend and an amazing father! We did it, babe. We moved out of state, had a baby and bought a house in under a years times. whoa. We took that leap of faith and we landed in the right spot!
my life is beautiful. I am ready to embrace it. I know at times it can be hard but it isn't impossible with God's love!
Time to move out of Transition
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
six months
Tenley Marie...6 MONTHS, really?!?
I can't believe our baby girl is 6 months, she is growing so fast! I love this little stage she is in, so entertaining and learning new stuff every day! We just can't get enough of Tenley.
Oh sweet Tenley, you are the perfect mix of daddy & mommy. You can be quiet and reserved like your momma and sometimes you are just so funny your little daddy personality shows, which I just adore.
I love how much we love everything about you.
I love how happy you are in the morning, let's face it mommy needs some time to wake up but as soon as our eyes meet, you get the biggest smile on your face and I am reminded once again how beautiful a new day truly is
I love when you burry your head in the crease of my neck when you are tired. I feel your breathe and it's beautiful.
I love how you grab my fingers, even when you just want to bit them.
I love how much music brightens your eyes and makes you kick your legs
I love how you smile through your paci
I love in the middle of the night daddy will bring you in our bed and put you right next to us and in the morning you touch our faces to wake us up, it's my favorite.
I love how you recognize us.
I love how sometimes you think I am funnier than daddy, but prince is the funniest :)
I love how you reach for things you want and when it's time to put toys away and take a bath, I love how you get a little upset when a toy has to be taken from you. I love this because it's how you communicate with us. I love that bond of you starting to decide what you want and don't want.
I love when you just are so happy you scream
I love when you grab my face and bring it towards yours
I love when you are so tired you kick your legs to try and stay awake and hum through your paci as your eyes close.
I love when you try and mimic the sounds we make with our mouth.
I love hearing you talk through the baby monitor
we just laugh so much with you. Even when we can hear you fart through the baby monitor :)
I love how much love you bring in our home
I love our nicknames for you:
peanut
baby girl
little bit
cuttie cupcake
mama
pum'kin
little
I love your little teeth
I love how you smell after a bath, mmm burts bees
I love how crazy your hair can be
I truly can go on and on.... but I am sure every parent can do the same about their little.
Here is a little video:
https://vimeo.com/41121508
I can't believe our baby girl is 6 months, she is growing so fast! I love this little stage she is in, so entertaining and learning new stuff every day! We just can't get enough of Tenley.
Oh sweet Tenley, you are the perfect mix of daddy & mommy. You can be quiet and reserved like your momma and sometimes you are just so funny your little daddy personality shows, which I just adore.
I love how much we love everything about you.
I love how happy you are in the morning, let's face it mommy needs some time to wake up but as soon as our eyes meet, you get the biggest smile on your face and I am reminded once again how beautiful a new day truly is
I love when you burry your head in the crease of my neck when you are tired. I feel your breathe and it's beautiful.
I love how you grab my fingers, even when you just want to bit them.
I love how much music brightens your eyes and makes you kick your legs
I love how you smile through your paci
I love in the middle of the night daddy will bring you in our bed and put you right next to us and in the morning you touch our faces to wake us up, it's my favorite.
I love how you recognize us.
I love how sometimes you think I am funnier than daddy, but prince is the funniest :)
I love how you reach for things you want and when it's time to put toys away and take a bath, I love how you get a little upset when a toy has to be taken from you. I love this because it's how you communicate with us. I love that bond of you starting to decide what you want and don't want.
I love when you just are so happy you scream
I love when you grab my face and bring it towards yours
I love when you are so tired you kick your legs to try and stay awake and hum through your paci as your eyes close.
I love when you try and mimic the sounds we make with our mouth.
I love hearing you talk through the baby monitor
we just laugh so much with you. Even when we can hear you fart through the baby monitor :)
I love how much love you bring in our home
I love our nicknames for you:
peanut
baby girl
little bit
cuttie cupcake
mama
pum'kin
little
I love your little teeth
I love how you smell after a bath, mmm burts bees
I love how crazy your hair can be
I truly can go on and on.... but I am sure every parent can do the same about their little.
Here is a little video:
https://vimeo.com/41121508
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